EVENTS & MOMENTS
Soreness due to lactic acid after gym and hives, skin itchin flesh achin :sob:
饼里有毒… :sob:
神奇山谷 is an amazing show. :Love:
Milch und Kaffee， bitte~
I left my bag on bike basket last friday, very fortunately when I realized it missing, I found someone warm-hearted hanging it on a tree in front of my dorm(very appreciated), AND I LOST IT AGAIN IN THE SAME WAY YESTERDAY, THIS TIME I GUESS I JUST NEVER GET IT BACK, I’M AN IDIOT, I NEED TO REPLACE MY BRAIN AND BE A TOTALLY NEW PERSON.
plot twist: :sob: :sob: There’s another great guy that have sent my bag to the reception of my dorm(very appreciated), LOVE THIS WORLD, LAME ME.
Travel in Changbai mountain with a partner
THOUGHTS & FEELINGS
My summer quilt is not edible, so is my sheet.
1/120 of a year for self-torture.
If the universe is divergent, somewhere in astrospace could be exactly & dynamically the same as Cultbelmonkey’space through a certain functional relationship，so I rule a real space truly.
Gravity on feet, I can at least do something.
I love Blue Rev, those desperately-triumphants will work eventually I believe, tough magic…
Treat me better, September. :sob:
hopefully encouraging
Clerical work is shit
A healthier way
Surplus is way scarier than shortage
“But language just scratches the surface of what we experience,” she continued. “I feel like I need to be able to explore sound and communicate things without words, too.”
超级期待
Sufjan Stevens’country life… The world could be abundant…
I feel a little bit nervous when I’m sleepy-eyed and there’s something I think I need to do, and I love coming-back after a tiring and hollow night, a bit cold in morning, I love homecoming.
most sentimental, most vulnerable
Everytime I make up my mind to eat 五爷拌面, I know my decision is bold.
Very happy, I’ve got there
There’ve been many Fleetwood Mac in my playlist this month, timeless music, good for my health.
Favorite lines in September
Rock on, Gold Dust Woman
Take your silver spoon, dig your grave
Heartless challenge
Pick your path and I’ll pray
Wake up in the morning
See your sunrise, loves to go down
Lousy lovers pick their prey
But they never cry out loud, cry out
Well did she make you cry
Make you break down
Shatter your illusions of love
And is it over now, do you know how
Pick up the pieces and go home
——Gold Dust Woman · Fleetwood Mac
We can live on the mountain
Like living in the sunset
——On Blue Mountain · Foxygen
It isn’t right to sit around
And think about the awful things that get you down
You’ve gotta try to wear a smile
No matter how hard it can be to do
I could make myself
Go crazy, crying over times
I’ve chased my broken dreams
But what is life without a dream and even I know dreams can still come true
——Lauren Marie · Girls
I didn’t take no shortcuts
I spent the money that I saved up
——Barely Legal · The Strokes
eyy! eya! eyy! eyy! ya! eya~ eya~ ya~~
——OnCe uPoN A SiLiY (oUrTo).Mp3 · Tisakorean
How does it seem to rearrange all the images in my mind
Believe that it happened to me like I was lost
But it happened all the same
——Red Bird Pt.2(Morning) · Florist
Walk up to the front door
Cold sweat and shaky
I’m here just to talk
Is it pouring out my body
My nervous aching
I like that you can see it
My mind is almost nineteen
And I still feel angry
I’m searching for the reason
And I think it’s kinda crazy
——I Like That You Can See It · Girlpool
So cupid draw back your bow and let your arrow go
Straight to my lover’s heart for me nobody but me
And cupid please hear my cry and let your arrow fly
Straight to my lover’s heart for me
Oh cupid don’t you hear me
Calling you I need you
Cupid why don’t you hear me
You know I need you
I need you
Cupid help me help me
Help me help me
Cupid I take me
Straight to my lover’s heart for me
——Cupid · Sam Cooke
Do you fall before the sun
And in the face of each trial
Are you sure that it’s down down
Down down
And what’s this lie that you place
Before the birth of your world
Just trying living now now
Now now
Decide “I’m one and I sing
Inside I’m still as I move
Now forget all that down down
Down down
Now I’m washed in Bywater rain
These water oaks and the train
And that song singing loud loud
Loud loud
Song shuts my eyes
Reminds me of my fight
To know the way
The way to love like a child
To always see what he chase
But it never holds how how
How how
Don’t hold too long
Or think you feign in insane for sane’s sake
Don’t break for song
Don’t break your name
‘Cause you taught me to stand
And the splinters will rise
And we are always come ‘round ‘round
‘Round round
——Royal and Desire · Animal Collective
When the hard times come and the hard times stay
When they stick around and won’t go away
When it seems there’s nothing you can do or say
Nowhere you can turn
From my last breath of my first death
To this lifetime and lifetimes left
Congratulations no regrets
It’s true
I was born for loving you
That’s just something I was made to do
Doesn’t matter what dreams come true
I was born for loving you
Just something I was made to do
Doesn’t matter what dreams come true
I was born for loving you
——Born For Loving You · Big Theif
长白 Changbai
Side View of the Cliff in Dark
咳咳… I mean… It’s universal that DARK matters(烂)
I quitted from a project which supported undergraduates to do some empirical work. Having no interest in the topic they gave me and plenty more other reasons. Now I need to do it myself. It’s an extremely horrible night, world-class terror, when I asked to quit. Quitting was pretty bad. Don’t wanna mention it again… I feel like I’m gonna rethink my daily life and future every now and then. I saw some classmates expressed their worries about the future which reminded me mine. A dark age for college students I thought. A late capitalism problem I could blame all on. I just didn’t know what to do, too(I didn’t think I should), and I didn’t actually know nothing, I know a little about the collage-students-can-do part. That’s just the saddest part. material materialize materialistic matter. Nevertheless, anything in my mind just don’t bother me when I wanna sleep, when I wanna loosen up, when I wanna waste a night with my friends cause I really want to have a good time, I just really really want. As a junior student now, I have to sow some seeds of happiness for my undergraduate career even though I’m likely to know that time transcends and make lots of things recede. Life is bitchy. God shall give me a solid formula about happiness(no no I take that back, my lord). Let it be, let it well be.
I have tried to drift away from my Araby this month, too. Seems I managed well. Time is the revelator which I learned from a stunningly-great-songwriter album. It’s so easy to always play dumb and to call cruelty awareness of self-defense, it just make yrself fake & selfish.
I visited Changbai mountain at the end of September. Nature is marvelous that I think I’m more and more identified with. I saw a kind of country life Sufjan Stevens have on his website. I really really wanna have one(Adrianna Lenker’s will be great too). Anyway, there’s something dark & edgy in my September and also some comfortable & bright. Changchun is getting colder, I couldn’t wear my shorts, great loss(But I will uphold my crocs for a couple more days). Let Oct in. Stay soft & positive.